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[Mar. 7th, 2010|04:08 pm] |
All the information she had just recieved was making her head spin, not only had he walked back into her life, well bumped, but he was telling her something that could have changed between them so many years ago. She felt like she wanted to hyperventilate, but luckily he had a steady hold on her. She still couldn't shake these feelings of heartache, but at least he was there now. She looked back into his familiar eyes and listened to what he had to say. As she verbally mentioned one of their places, she felt her heart pound in her chest and she nodded slowly. "Yeah. That sounds like a good idea." She exhaled, taking his hand with a little more confidence as they walked to that old restaurant. They walked in silence for now and her eyes scanned her surroundings. Once they arrived, they were seated at a booth and they were forced to order and talk.
THEM
She was mindlessly scanning the menu and she couldn't help, but wonder what was going to happen to them now. Was this just a one time thing? Could they actually be a couple again? Would they pick up where they left off? A million thoughts raced in her mind and she wished this could be easy enough to go on with their daily lives. She finally set the menu down when she heard him speak. Things could be so different now, he could be different now and she sighed at that possiblity. SHe looked at him, with slight yearning and she nodded, "Trust me, I have no idea what do or say, Kyle. I mean I never thought I'd see you again. Things they jsut ended so badly."
THEM.
She shook her head in disappointment, he didn't understand how much she hurt when he left and how it still hurt to this day, even if she understood more why he did it. "I can't pick up where we left off." She chuckled lightly in disbelief and disappointment, "I'm not that naive. I know we can't just go on from where we left off. It's probably impossible, we've matured over these two years." But of course she was going to protest his suggestion, she was quite the stubborn one, "But I can't just go back to the normalcy of tomorrow. Not after I have you right in front of me. I just can't."
THEM.
She look at him wide-eyed, of course he made a lot of valid points, but what was she suppose to do, forget she ever ran into him today? That was impossible and out of the question. She frowned, this felt so complicated and she just wished they never had to go through this in the first place. "Kyle, we don't have to figure out everything now. I mean I still have a lot of feelings for you, I don't want to let you go, so why can't we just agree to keep seeing each other? Date or something? I don't know, but we don't have to make any serious decisions right now. I mean you're right we've probably changed over the years so I want to get to know this new side of you. We just don't have to give up on a possiblity of us right now, do you get what I'm saying?" |
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[Mar. 7th, 2010|01:20 pm] |
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The other day I was able to witness two very different emotions painted on the faces of a vast group of people. Granted, I get to do that on a day to day basis because I am one of those people who enjoy people watching. My eyes scanned from left to right and it seemed like 4 out of 5 people had a serious look or frown on their face. I guess because I ended up pursuing the career of acting I turned out to be more observant and analytical then I could have ever imagined. But now I am just getting horribly side tracked. Plus to top it all off my mind is hazy as my eyes are slowly closing to head off to dreamland, but I will get my point across now.
As I mentioned about I noticed two different emotions on everyone’s face and the first one I wanted to attack was the serious frown look. I, more than anyone, can understand that sometimes we just have shit days where we do not feel like being happy. In the last few years I have wanted to make my life better. I am at such a high point in my life that I just want to enjoy it, but I also know that I can definitely make it better. So I thought about these unhappy faces and wondered curiously as to why they were unhappy? Was it a trouble time at home? Did they receive some unfortunate news? Then I thought could it be some of these people preferred to frown than smile because it was an easier way to blend into the crowd? My mind continued to toy with these ideas and it went back and forth from their thoughts to my own. I tried to think about days when I was unhappy and I just remember drawing out the frown much longer than it needed to be. I dwelled on being unhappy instead of moving on and I have realized that this was the little change I wanted to make in my life to make it better.
The following emotion I noticed, at least the one that was barely there on most faces was a smile. It was beautiful to see a smile illuminate such joy or happiness; it also made me wonder what caused such emotion. There is a plethora of reasons, but the point in the end was that there were some smiles in the crowds. It’s kind of funny how infectious a smile can be, just like a frown. A frown can actually make you feel bad or want to scowl for no good reason. Seeing the pearly white teeth shine bright off of someone’s face and ensue the best of emotions within you. They always say you should smile because it’s contagious. Smile because it can change someone else’s day and this is ultimately the reason why I want to smile more often. I want to smile to share that kind of pure love with someone else and because in my opinion a smile is beautiful on anyone and everyone. |
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